The waiting game!

After years of writing, putting things on the shelf, back to writing, then editing, then shelving the project, writing more, editing, shelving the project, writing and editing more, my memoir is finally finished! What started as a journal in the spring of 2019, as a way to write my thoughts down and help me understand how i came to be me, it is now a 250 page memoir ready to be published.

I have submitted the project to two publishing organizations so far. Self publish? Well, it is actually harder and much more expensive than one would think. in my case it is likely north of $10,000. Anyway, this is not the crowd sourcing pitch. I just wanted to share with you the synopsis of my book! It is very close! I have engaged a few beta readers to test out my final draft. Fingers crossed that publishers are interested! So here is a little to pique your interest for now!

Sorry I Was Such a D!ck, When I Had One

By Dee McWatters

At 43, Darrien McWatters, known to friends as Dee, seemed to have it all: a family, a respected role in the local wine industry, and deep roots in her small British Columbia community as a hockey coach and referee. But behind the façade was a lifetime of confusion and silent suffering, culminating in the collapse of her marriage and a spiraling mental health crisis. Sorry I Was Such a D!ck, When I Had One is a raw and unflinchingly honest memoir of Dee’s journey to understand and embrace her true self as a transgender woman after decades of living under the mask of masculinity.

Told with humour, vulnerability, and emotional clarity, this memoir traces Dee’s evolution from childhood secrecy to midlife revelation. Through awkward makeup experiments, hard conversations with loved ones, moments of heartbreak, and the joy of gender-affirming surgery, Dee offers a deeply personal yet universally resonant story. Both an intimate coming-out journey and a broader reflection on identity, love, parenting, and self-acceptance, her memoir provides connection and insight for cisgender allies and trans readers alike. It’s a late-blooming coming-of-age story that proves it’s never too late to become who you are.